For such a private person...I am really putting my business out there! LOL so, I'm looking into what is the best way to blog and the best topics. I think my life may be too boring for you guys. I say this because I don't see any comments and I would LOVE to interact with you. This is what I do in my business. I send out weekly newsletters about what I am doing or any upcoming events and they share what they think with me. When I write the newsletter I write it to them! I want you guys to connect with me. Am I connecting? Maybe that's the issue. Maybe I am not connecting with you on here like I am with my list. Hmmm...something to think about huh?

But this is my whole goal, its pretty f%$king boring to just talk to myself right? I like to hear what you think or if you have any opinions of what I am doing. So SPEAK UP DAMN IT!!

In other news...my son and I talk all of the time, how does it get any better than that?
My daughter just came back from Florida and she wants us to move there...yeah right back home to South Florida, we would just live a little north of the same county, but that is where my son and his dad live, so that would be awesome! My daughter wants to go see her dad and try to build some type of a relationship with him. I tell her all of the time "baby, please know that you should expect NOTHING from him" and she says she knows but that's my job; to protect her and warn her and prepare her for what I know is coming. It's still hard for a child to know that her dad is dead even though he is still physically here. We talk about this all of the time and I put it like this, when he attempted suicide in 2008 we lost the man, husband, father that we once knew. The person is gone forever.
We cried and I know that I felt like (at the time) I was grieving for my husband like a death had occurred. I knew he was never going to be the same and it was easier for me to accept too but he is not my dad he is my (now) ex-husband. I could not even imagine my father doing that and as a child going through such a horrific event/s. All I can do moving forward is what I am doing which is be there for them and always talk good about their dad and let go of all the bad feelings that I had before toward him, and I have. We were just talking the other day and I said to my daughter "I talk about daddy better now than I ever did when we were married" she agreed and I said that is because I am not with him and I am happy now! I don't blame him for anything and now I can see and talk about all of the good in him.  I still miss the man I WAS in love with at one time and of course I wish my marriage and our family didn't go the way it did but this is where we are at now and it's our journey and everything happens for a reason so...