I was Flying High on Wednesday, the book that I am a co-author of a book that launched and went straight to a "best seller" and stayed there for 2 days! I was posting this on my Twitter, FB (personal) and my FB business page and getting great responses and support from the other authors and my friends and family and then Thursday...I was scrolling through FB and saw a pic of my childhood/family friend post about her sister who was my best friend when we were little. The statement said something like she is looking down from heaven and watching you and I went into a panic mode! I couldn't believe what I was reading and said to myself "no please no she cant be dead" I messaged her (sister) and asked what was going on? I went back to her wall and scrolled down until I saw something which was from back in November 2014. And yes, she is dead, she took her own life the Monday before Thanksgiving. I immediately text my dad and asked if he knew about this?He did but he thought he had told me about it and that is my dad, forgetful lol I cant be mad at him, he didn't mean any harm but my mom (who doesn't talk to me anymore) should of emailed me. I was so pissed off that she didn't and I emailed her, I pulled back from the anger emotion because i know we say stuff that we shouldn't when we are angry. so here's the email I wrote:

Mom,

I just found out about Melissa, You didn't think to reach out to me to tell me what happened to her? 

What did I do to you to have so much anger towards me?

 You know that despite Melissa being on drugs that I loved her and I love Diane too! 

I don't understand what you are thinking by cutting me and Sam off completely. I feel sorry for you, because only a special person could cut off their daughter for NO REASON!!! so sad so very sad.

her response: 
Who cut who off?

My response:

You know what Mom...I love you! and that will never ever change.

 I really hope that you do not think that I "cut you off" because I would never do that. 

You are my Mom and I have the utmost respect for you. 

 I just want you to know that I love you. 

FB Post:

Just found out that a childhood friend of mine took her own life back in Nov 2014. The tears won't stop! I feel so heartbroken for her and her family. She was truly a lost soul BUT a beautiful person, a loving person and a person that deserved happiness is her life. Unfortunately her demons won in the end. It is so hard to accept that she is gone FOREVER! I had a chance to reconnect with her back in 2009 she worked with me and I knew then that the drugs really took over her, even when she was clean she was a different person, she couldn't considerate and the once responsible hard working smart girl that I knew wasn't there anymore.
I have so many memories with her as a child we would have sleep overs all the time stay up late listening to music and dance 70's style lol I will hold on to those memories of her and know that she is finally experiencing pure peace and happiness.
Rest in Peace Sweet Melissa. — feeling emotional.